It feels like the core of my heart's turning darker. Or maybe is my mind.
I feel I could cry everyday without knowing the reason(s). Or not wanting to admit them.
My life looks like a damn river. Never stops, never goes back, it floods, it dries, it gets wild, it gets calm... Kind of like my temper.
I'm so stupid. Full of endless hopes. All these hopes, why don't they disappear? Why I can't grow up? Why can't I put in my stupid head that's it's never going to be like I want? I'm so insignificant for the world. Such a tiny ant. Feeling crushed and astonished. Not in a good way.
The more I live, the more I preferred not to.

I... I must be over fucki*g emotional.